It's weird how the mind works.
I don't really spend any conscious time worrying about getting into medical school, at least I haven't yet, though I can feel that time drawing closer.
But it still weighs on my mind. At least I think that's what it is. Lately I just don't seem to be myself. My mind isn't functioning properly. Part of it is that a large part of my mental ability and especially endurance goes into school every day. The mental agility required to keep up with roomful of curious 10 year olds is suprising.
But there's something else, and it has grown stronger and stronger as the time approaches. Having not heard in January I became a bit apprehensive, but over the last two weeks as the middle of February approaches I have begun to doubt myself. The "If I get in"'s have snuck their way back into conversation without anyone noticing. I feel like it saps my mental energy. Maybe I'm just a wimp. Plus we've had people over for dinner every night for the last week. I know that saps my energy.
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You seemed pretty normal on Saturday night...
i know the feeling. when i get stressed out, i don't necessarily keep thinking about the issue, but i start doing weird things like putting my wallet random places or forgetting appointments or neglecting my apartment. Plus, you being the person you are, you probably need a little more time by yourself.
o and also, i know this is easier for me to say than for you to think, but i'm sure you'll get into med school. you're absolutely brilliant.
The good news is that you are already going to medical school. The better news is that God has HIs hand in the whole thing...so if we have to move to Michigan...Ypsilanti- or whatever that city is...will welcome us in. I hope.
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